不能说的秘密

心里的话，我想你会明白

单身真好:)

I seriously wonder how blonde people takes cr of their hair. Jus gave my hair a revamp! Got myself copper as the base and dyed the ends blonde! And they are dry and tangling all Tgt!! But I think it looks really nice though except for the maintenance part! I think Veyond really understands my wants and my needs:) Currently at town fixing the unfinished business. And then I'm done! How was your Christmas everyone? It flew by in a blink of an eye yeah. Now it's jus new year's eve left. Who wants to spend new year's eve with me!?!?

We're gg nowhere

Tonight, like any other night, I worked very hard in forgetting every single bit of what's left. But I know I'm living in self denial. Spare me. At least spare me for tonight. It feels exactly like re-living that very night again perhaps I shd bring forward the time that I set for my resignation.

Christmas 2011

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope everyone hav fun tonight cause I know I would! I love December!! Loving the many extra festives that gives me the excuses to do bad! Cannot wait for the celebration tonight! It's nv about what, where or numbers but who you spend it with. I'm glad I've got a bunch of crazy people to keep me entertained tonight! Got mommy a room at mbs tonight for her own celebration hope she hav fun:) MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!
<3 Y.

That&apos;s probably me

I guess I took it too hard. What happened, had created a mark which I'll never be able to wash it away. Some emotions, I probably would take them to my grave. That explains why I'm getting harder to get along. Is that the post drama syndrome? It isn't fair and as much as I would like to take that out from me. I can't. I fear even the most basic necessity in life. Feelings.

I love Sunday mornings like this!

Had a mj session last night. It's always comedic playing with 素素，青青 & 法海！Last min decision though. Doesn't feels like a Saturday night. I'm too used to working every single day. Am currently at Mac having breakfast before I head to work! Full shift sunday! Thanks 素素 & 青青 for keeping me company! :D

Whom, I call a friend

It's upsetting. But this is life.

Grateful cause I have you

Awesome Wednesday night! Happy belated birthday to my beloved bestie! Can't believe we're celebrating our 22nd gg 23rd. It's been eight long years. Everything we've been sharing, im glad we came into each other's lives.

And of course thanks to chef sim. She's always been caring for me all this while. So happen that I was craving for chilled beancurd and coincidentally she was at old changi! My life couldn't get any better, really.

With love, Y.

A simple Tuesday night

Though the movie suck but thanks for the companion!! Really tired but still needs to air dry my hair. I'm jus as bad as expressing my thoughts into words. I honestly didn't meant it that way but when I tried reading it again, omg. It sounded really mean! I'm sorry. Meeting my girls tml!! The thought jus ticks me!! Alright goodnight everyone! Cheers to a better tml!
With love, Y.

The day couldn&apos;t get any worse than this

Everything jus ain't gg right. First, the teeth hurts, then the minor car crash. Then my account keeps giving me probs. To my admin carelessness and now, I'm having a bad headache.

The extraction aftermath

The anesthetic wears off, I'm basically talking like a cock. I can't pronounce anything with w, r. Having this major problem with the tongue and the gum. It isn't that painful, it's just purely uncomfortable max. I got screwed for replying late. Oh well, sorry boss. I'm jus really thankful that the misery is finally coming to an end. There are just too many drafts that I've saved which will never be reveal to the public eye. It didn't matter with or without, there's just how supposedly existed and then it disappeared.

This December

Jus done with some packing. By the time I finish packing them, i think it might take years frm now? Too many things to be thrown and replace, when will I ever finish? Shd I donate them all to the salvation army? Seem like a waste for some to end up in the trash bin. Why never ending tasks to do... Sigh. Been sourcing concepts for the house though. Any suggestions? Really bump out lately. Even a notebook ain't enough to jot down everything that I hav to track. My life is basically playing on a replay mode now. Did I mention Sow gt my DVD player fix while I'm away? And she gave my 小红 a really clean and pretty look. Hehehe. Loving it! I guess the only thing that I miss while I'm away was 小红! Hate to unpack and pack again! More getaway trips would be niceeeee!

Illusion

Finally back! Best post trip I ever had! Lost my house key! Stuck downstairs! Thumbs up to the stupidest me! Anyway, the vacation was too short. Sigh. I really wanted to extend it. But now its back to reality. Why?

Pre vacation jitters

Reality still hasn't sunk in. My long awaited break. Yet I'm leaving in a heavy heart, knowing my mom can't handle but. I still chose to go. 我知道是我自私。Anyway I'm moving house. It's exciting yet at the same time my future is full of mysteries. I wonder where I'll end up at though. Need to purchase new furnitures, utensils! Omg! Sooo many things to do! Im planning for my hong kong trip as well hopefully I can be there either christmas eve or new year's eve. hehehehe. I went shopping again this week. I'm getting really out of hand. My fingers keep getting the cramps! &it hurts sometimes! Shd I get it bandaged again before leaving? What is this... Have yet to check if I hav auto roam on my mobile! God, I am hungry! Why must my cup noodles be out at this time!? I still hav tons and tons of to-dos on my mind! Let's get them all jot down now!

太多太多。。

Perfect weather. Perfect environment. A cup of coffee with the perfect music makes work such a pleasure at such a time.

Feel so useless these days. Typing, showering, cleaning, washing, packaging, driving. The wound is a nuisance!!

Can never find another mom like my mom! How to not dote & love!? <3

Fucking pissed off at myself! Why was I so careless!? Fucked up day! Really!

崩溃

The Nth timeth, I feel so bad towards my mom

Money is a really really scary thing. It changes people. It manipulates people. It makes people go crazy. So damn piss off at the mid class people. Neither too damn rich nor poor but at least start saving up your generosity. Why they never listen till shit happens? I'm damn worried, my life is full of the unpredictables. I jus want a peaceful life filled with securities and assurance. Why is that so difficult to attain? Sometimes i really wana be nice to my mom but then again, sometimes she gets me on my nerves! We've led a unfortunate life since and only lately, we saw the light. Pls don't let it just be a momentarily happiness.

Awakening

The thing I could never understand about humans, if you can't trust somebody then why entrust him or her to do something? Am so very sick and tired of demanding and unreasonable fellas. Anyway, had a couple of glasses of coffee this morning, the taste is terrific. I'm wide awake but still tired mentally. My day ends just too quick sometimes. Still wayyy captivated by the morning scene. Got a surprise ready for mommy this Christmas. I've been a real ingrate. I hope to make it up to her from now on. Sorry.. for neglecting you over insignificant, unappreciative fellows. I hope I didn't woke up too late. I'm gonna hav my lunch now! <3

Morning.

Slept at 330, woke up at 6. Awesome view though.

A few months ago, I was right opposite living the dream.

Fuck up system. I'm getting all stuck outside like an idiot. Really, whoever would appreciate having a fingerprint system. I'd rather go by the card access.

Never judge a person by its appearance. Yet another lesson learnt tonight. Good luck in finding the one. You'll be surprise.

五年就好。

今晚的我，只拿到五十分。

Awesome way of finding out
Really terribly nice of you

Next chapter:)

Time out

Fantastic! Changed the bed sheet, vacuumed and clean the floor! Washed the kitchen floor, dishes. Wiped the furnitures! Boiled some water, made some ice cubes, cleared the trash bin. Got my clothes machine washed, air dry, folded! Just done with all of them am really really hungry now!

虽然在你看来我很傻但比起后悔我宁愿看起来可笑。我这一生不希望再有第二次的后悔。你不爱我没关系，你爱上她人我也无所谓。就算我明天就这么死去我也无怨无悔。因为我的爱如此

Paris awaits me!

Mondays to Sundays are all the same. Got over the days with scoldings, tripping and falling with bruises, cuts and burnt marks are jus parts and parcels of my life. The only thing I'm looking forward to is my dream vacation hopefully next year. And of course my apartment. Knocked off from one work off to the next:)

你有完没完！？

放手吧。。拜托你。。

对不起

我的心，我没办法
我的爱，我也没办法
我做不到

梦醒了，就该回到现实。

The same time few years back.

I just never trusted my place. Be it past, present or future. It's Halloween night. Am sure all of you must be having fun dating &partying. Happy Halloween.

Doing what they do best

While everyone is busy dating, bringing girls to the movies, having fun getting to know new people, I spend my halloween working! Happy Halloween peeps!!
I bought a new toy btw! My baby is arriving next week hopefully by friday!

When life fails you, life goes on still.

Forsaking something you had a part in building it, probably takes you a lifetime to understand the pain. It's as good as killing me. I watched it grew, watched it crawl, watched it fall, watched it bloom. I never imagine one fine day I would hav had to forsake it.

还在忍耐

I bought a MacBook, sold a MacBook. How ironic. My stomach feels a bit weird today.
Do we look alike btw? Haven't gotten a picture taken with my mom for a very long long time..

When will i see the end?

I wana quit the job. If I can I wish to quit my life all together, is that possible?

Work

Number 1, I need to buy a really big notebook like maybe an A3 size to keep track of all the daily transactions as well as the business activities as well as the people.
Number 2, I have to double check over and over again the work done, the amount, the cheques, the payments, the invoices. People's damn careless mistakes of the simplest things like tabulating the amount and spelling errors.
Number 3, the fingerprint system is just stupid and a waste of money. It takes them one second to get in but I have to get stuck for a good 5-10mins before I can get in.
I have one million and one things to keep track and monitor every single day. And boss, you said it too damn easy. If it wasn't for the kan chiong, there would be plenty of shit holes you damn jolly well knows.
In life, there are people whom are worth you slogging your asses off for but in life there are also people you know too damn well what a big ingrate they can be. And what kind of a fool you are to hold on to that damn responsibility you swore to safekeep. It's nt that I don't make mistakes, I made countless of them. But its the effort in safeguarding the operation like no other. The kind of initiative you would automatically take, to make anything and everything better. The kind of zillions checking and risks to take before making any decisions. You can't find that anywhere. You can't find that no more. Unfortunately, there's bound to still have that 1% chance of failure. I personally had experienced it a million times already.
Speaking about initiatives, it's where many failed me, like how I feel life failed me, many times.

24/7

I'm happy to have met people from all walks of life. But am still sad that I got involved with so many of them. There are strengths and flaws in everyone so why can't we stay in harmony and think more for others? I know my bad temper is obstructing. I know that I'm really inconsiderate to the people around me. As long as I get my things done, I didn't bother how frustrated it get for others. But naturally I take people for granted and vice versa too. It's been a really long night and I'm just really upset that either direction gets me nowhere. My home used to be my only consolation and of course at least something worth going through, getting stretched everywhere, everyday. But time changed me and everything into a big mess. My mind seems like a computer that hasn't been shut down for months. Just really close to breaking point. But still, life have been kind. I'm healthy, and still breathing.

Closure

My breakfast cum lunch cum dinner & supper. Finally after 18 hours of hardwork, I get to rest my feet. Poor them, suffering from major crack and peel. Lol. I need a new pair of slippers!:)

Bachelorette pad!

Mock me like you will. Am finally moving house. Gotta stay at some random place for a couple of months before the house will be ready. Still feel oddly outcasted, cannot wait for another year before I can finally get my own dream house and to start a brand new beginning. Although I'm as good as living it now since I'm staying on my own. But I'm pretty sure it's gonna feel a whole lot different! It's gonna be my first ever major fulfillment of my life!

Side by side

It's been really cold lately. I could get by without the fan and the air condition. Anyway this is what I saw today.. Cute aight?

So gone wrong!

Jus changed to my third set of aligners! It's soo tight that I had to take a long while to get it out and to put it back on again. I can't munch on solid food, spoiled my appetite! The pressure on my teeth is getting on my nerves! I am already hoping it could be over at the soonest!

One down, two to go.

许下的誓言承诺，像河水就这么流走了

一分包容
两分不舍
三分无可奈何
四分痛定思痛

Its 4.45. Puked for the entire night &jus am able to rest myself. It's been weeks. Why can't I stop falling sick? Why can't I stop waking up every hour? I really need some real practical rest be it physically or mentally.

I fucking hate everything about myself!

Fucking glasses! Of all times you have to fucking lose a screw! Then now what! Driving like a blind man! Fucked up peak hour! Why the fuck am I so stupid? I want to start living for myself! The jam is seriously getting on my nerves!

山无棱，天地合，才敢与君绝

Shoutout

I'm hungry. Skipped my dinner again. Saw my dream car by the way. Hehe. Went pass Mac but decided to quit it but now damn, I regretted it. I WANT TO EAT.

Wad

No matter how I look at it, the sky seem grey today. Its already up to a point where I'm tired of even doing any explanations.

Wiser? Maybe not.

Just received my Frank card today &i cannot wait for both my pins to be mailed to me! I need to change pins &my signature. Was thinking of getting the Posb Go card replace too! It's gonna be a tiring weekend ahead but I look forward to getting to the end of this year and to embrace the next. I have so much plans on my mind but too little time to fulfill all my goals! Speaking of which, my Cpf finally has a decent amount of figure in it but still, it seems like a long way before I could down a house! LOL.
The best part of my life is that I can never sleep at the right time. Insomnia has officially replaced gastric as my best friend!

Lost &found

I coax myself to sleep every night hoping that I won't be waking up tomorrow. I hope one day, I could start feeling another way.

iPhone apps

Because I have an awesome iPhone that's why we've got pretty pictures. Hehehe. Say hello to my new colleague:)

幸福

为什么幸福终是于我擦肩而过？ 我渴望的幸福，你了解多少？

How much can you relate?

Managed to get up in the morning for work everyday even if I slept really late during the previous nights. I'm starting to love myself more for that;) But on a sad note, it looks like its going to rain anytime soon. Pls don't. It makes me feel exceptionally lonely. &cold. Mom's flying off this weekend. Double thy pressure.

家

我今天真的觉得冷，好需要对你微不足道的温暖。

In this industry, the people always have their way to make you feel really bad about yourself. It's like they are born with that thirst to destroy be it their competitors or people they deem whom isn't capable enough. And because we really ain't knowledgeable hence..

每天

我都会忘

外面有比家温暖吗？

I had a dream last night

My head's been spinning the whole week. Have yet to eat the whole day today &i forgot to pack home. Oh man. But on a happier note, my baby is back with me by my side:) feel so blessed:)
And my nose is running... PerrrrrrrrFECT!

Last day of sep

I wish the parade in my stomach could stop. At times like these, I yearn for an older sibling. I miss my grandma too.

Omg it's but only a day that god bless me a night without the sleeping nightmares and troubles. There we go again. It's getting annoying and suffocating waking up every hour. Fml.

Hello:) I wish there was an invention like an international voice recognition digital dictionary where I could bring it to all over the world and irregardless of the language barrier! we could communicate with just that! Japan! I'll be waiting for this invention! Anyway, I was thinking of where to go for holiday this coming cny and Japan would be really niceeeee! However, I'm afraid of the language barrier cause I heard that the street directories are all in Japanese? Sigh.

下大雨了。。真希望淋了这场雨后，大病一场，失忆然后痊愈好吗？ 「有没有』」」」」「「」」「」「「」「「「「「「「」

Sep 26

Having a fever at this hour, you must be kidding me. I guess I had too much of Mac these days.

我会消失

我也怕会有遗憾

因为太害怕我的人生会有万一

Illness comes in an army!

Can anybody buy some lunch + dinner? Nobody's gonna realize even if I drop dead like that.

First few days of the aftermath

I've been feeling nauseous for days and it's really pissing me off so bad. Slept early every day but wakes up every hour is no joke besides, it killed my appetite. Anyway I got myself an iphone4 with a new number. I realize after every eventful time of my life, I change it. I change it so frequent that I begin losing track of whom I shd give it to and probably can't be bother to give anymore. Well it's still a good thing afterall cause I'll be updating here more often!:)) A few days ago, a stupid Tuscani slam onto my baby's ass few days ago. I'm so sad my baby got her virgin bang! Thanks to that moron, I've gt no transport and it's soooooo inconvenient! Ok let's end this with the world's ugliest big fat bitch snapshot!!

Jus for the keep

Things that are on-going 2011:

1) BRACES! :D
2) Second Ink!

Things to accomplish before 2012:

1) Lasik
2) Diving License
3) Bracelet
4) Bag
5) Attain Health Insurance
6) Attain Distinction for both account papers
7) Pass the **** test
8) More responsible
9) More understanding
10) Time to throw my temper & tantrums OUT!
11) Learn to attain a higher EQ

Things to accomplish before 2013:

1) A new house!
2) A new car! HOPEFULLY!

Some things to share

Boy: I broke up with her.


His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..


Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!


His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.



His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

___________________________________________________



Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig?

How true.. By the time you realize how amazing she is, its already too late..

A happy girl that I am

Hello, feels great to be back at this space! Been missing you soooooo much! Did you miss me?
I had a simple yet awesome celebration for this year's birthday. I really thought it was gonna suck a million judging from the way things were and also I really wasn't feeling it. Sigh. But it turn out great! I love the surprises and yes, I was really touched! Thank you and to everyone for your wishes & your presence that made the past week an absolute great week! <3

Because my world revolves around something else

I wrote a few long drafts not sure if I should post it
I'm just different now
Well do check out this space, there might be a long post coming up tml
Hopefully I don't get cursed or sweared at
Even though I know it definitely deserves a lot of swearing
<3.Y

April 2011

I bought yet another men's fragrance lately
Its hard to fathom, I am completely aware of this!
I gt strange stares whenever I let on about this weird fetish of mine!
But I absolutely LOVE shopping for men's fragrance!
I love my man wearing the smell that I like:)
&I tend to snuggle a lot if he is wearing that special cologne!
Do I sound pervertic?!?
Oh my, I'm sorry!
They get me very xxxxxcited! :D

I'm still alive

I don't know where to go from here
I may not know, I may not see, but it doesn't mean its changing
It does not mean it is not happening
You know whats the one thing in common
What they both don't know is that I'd rather starve
I might the only child but home was never homely
You don't know me, don't you
I've never been so disappointed
Never been so dishearted
I've never felt so vulnerable
Yet I am simply telling myself the same thing over again each day
I will live again tomorrow

Lost

Th whole computer just went down, everything gone without backing up
My mind went totally blank and i don't know where to start picking up the pieces
Even the damn network harddisk is giving me probs like file cannot be read; the file format or extension is incorrect
Omg, damn you haters
Th fucking system just frigging pisses me off

Enough

Let's all look forward to a brand new beginning from now on

26 March 2011

I'm tired, I wish to take a break.

Selfless love

" The real lover is not somebody who momentarily does something extraordinary, but a person who would tirelessly keep you in their actions. They cover you in sheets when you fall asleep, asking about your day everyday, remembering to take out your whites from the laundry, taking cue and giving you a good massage when you're merely squeezing your temples, you get the picture. "

extracted from a*****

BO PEEP BO PEEP BO PEEP

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Guess what

you deserve everything that is happening cause you settle for that trash anyways
somehow or another it is expected and should be expected
it doesn't and shouldn't come as a surprise
i thank god for his early enlightenments amen
and i wish you all, a happy belated valentines, my <3
i have th coolest frens LOL

Thank god I gave up

sometimes we jus hav to accept th fact:)

How we evolved

“People are always talking about how hard it is to find a good man, but these days it’s hard to even find a good person.


It’s so hard to even find a person to talk to; someone who will just listen and not judge, someone who will just take you as you are.”

Battle nature

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.