Ain't never gonna let another bring me down

I try as much as i can to keep my distance. I still have yet to mend the broken pieces. I trust too easily, I relied on just anyone I feel comfortable with too quickly. That resulted in shattered hopes, empty beliefs, broken dreams. Tonight its yet another self reminder, to not trust, and to never rely on nobody. ever again.

Cursed ego.

I'm short, plump, pessimist with a wrinkled face, huge nose, big face, short hands &legs.
I'm not feeling inferior.
I'm just me.
I like how my lips are torn, my feets & hands that are scarred and the bruises on my ass.
I'm not perfect, neither am I sociable.
I never like running outta my comfort zone.
They call me a freak. Or ajumma at times.
I like it better.
I have no expectations of life cause it fails me everytime.
& I'm bloody sick of the boring lies.
So where does that leave me?
I don't know. Perhaps you can tell me?
Its just the way that I am now; too broken inside.

This is how we say goodbye. At least for me.

You were my sun. You were my rain. I swore by my undying love. I remember everything you claimed. But now, its all just a shame. Two much. Too much. I'm too damaged. I know how perfectly imbalance my world has became. It's ok with the lonely nights, I'm alright fighting on my own. Rumors spreading. Everybody's laughing. Its ok. There's no victory, there's no defeat. Just a game of deceit. Cause all I ever wanted was to just walk away. Walk away..