A leap year

I hav difficulty falling aslp every night. It's 6 and my stomach is topsy turby again. I hav so much to do tml :/

Totally deserve it

Went crazy cause I jus couldn't get things right. Alignments, format, jus reminiscing the stupid moments.
Number two, have yet to figure out my Mac. Jus really gg crazy.

Dinner, no?

I feel like eating prawn mee from Adam's hawker. I got so sick of eating bread and cup noodles. Life's a bitch. Been skipping breakfast and dinner for the past week. I'm jus too physically drained to even wana think what to hav for dinner.i think I've only had a couple of hours of slp for the last two days?? -.-
On a brighter note, finally got myself my MacBook!! And my Lumix camera! Awesome max!!

My every Sunday

I have one and a half hr to go before I head to work. Am still deciding if I shd nap or jus stay up throughout. I'm really afraid of oversleeping but at the same time I'm god damn tired. Jus only had two hours of slp yst night. Dolly was awesome fun as usual with the most comfy companion. But my gastric had to act up at the wrong timing. So now I'm staring into space. Still in hesitation. Shd I slp or not?

Feb 2012

Exactly 5 months to my 23rd. Im on my way to dolly to meet my girls in my pajamas. Super lazy to get hm to change its gg 1. And i only slept for two hours last night. After a tower, I'm dead beat right now. But jus really can't resist partying with my girls in 3/4 pants, a normal top and flats. I love you girls. Thanks for your ever-presence which prevented my loneliness every night <3

Traveling diary

My next goal in life, travel around the world!
Japan &korea would be my next stop follow by phuket, rendang, langkawi, krabi, tioman.
And then Vietnam, before I fly off to the European countries!
Cannot wait to share with you guys my traveling diaries! Probably would cleared most of them by end of next year:)

Hello, haven't had the time to do up a proper post on my trip. And yes I'm still very lazy to do so. I guess i'll jus push it back indefinitely. No empty words made right? I've been having all sorts of cravings since I'm back.
Sushi jiro
Rajah inn
Prata Bom
Pizzahut
Jumbo seafood
Chippy
Chicken rice
Prawn mee
Lor mee
Laksa
Wanton mee
Salted egg crab
But because I hav no car now. Couldn't get any of it satisfy. Sigh.

I CANNOT WAIT!!

Less than 14 hours to my flight! And I'm still packing! Arggg!! I cannot make up my mind how many bottoms to grab along with me? A part of me scare that it's too much, &a part of me am afraid is too little! And I'm sure that I'll definitely overspend la! Taiwan baby! No wait! Aiyaa I don't know what I'm talking about either! Still have to head down to hg to grab my mon's credit card! So leh jey! Jacket 1? 2? Or 3? Lol!! I'm gonna dress casual la! And the best part is my luggage is wayyyy too small for the 6 days trip!! And ehhhh.. don't really wana over elaborate on my fb status for now ah. Don't gossip and kpo ok people! Thanks for being so supportive, my dollies who camped and commented all morning since yst night! God! I slept at 5 last night but woke up at 7 plus 8 cause my phone notifications tones kept going on and on! This is the exact scenario I'm talking about when I forgot to turn on the silent mode! Ok enough whining!! I'll blog when im back! Baby coming over to keep me company cause our flight at 7! And we hav to be there by 5! Booooo! No overslp-ing! But I don't think I can slp tonight! Lol! For you baby, <3<3<3 I know you'll be reading this right infront of me again!!

Core values

Jus booked the tickets for my Taiwan trip next week, flying off on vday. It adds on to my list of impromptu trips and the list goes on. Today, will probably be one of those days that will forever be etched in my heart. Those wounds inflicted, those memories tt I walked over, every single one of them I will always remember them. I sincerely wish the best for each and everyone of you. The time has come, and having came this far, even though I'm setting my foot on a different path with a heavy heart but I'm anticipating my future. With new dreams, comes new hope.

Topsy turby

Hit with a sudden dizzy spells on the way hm. Took an hour to get hm from town, puking along the way. The journey hm was tough and horrendous. But thank god I made it hm. I shd really consider stop driving when I'm sick. Lady luck ain't gonna shine on me every single time and I'm jus playing with chances. Anyway I'm feeling much much better. Showered and pack some stuff. I'm jus waiting my hair to air dry before I hit the sacks. And omg! I'm gg Taiwan next next week! Yep, I knw! Pretty last min! I'm excited max!! Been wanting to go back there years ago!! Hehehehe. My life is awesome max! Minus the illness! I'll be back! Sayonara!

Extreme ends.

Even if there isn't anybody for me to depend on, I still hope to be somebody that others could depend on. At least it has given me some meaning to push on. I'm upset with myself for falling sick. And it's been mother f long. I'm running out of patience. I can't slp every night, I cough to slp, wake up coughing. Enough is enough. It's time to stop. Really. I'm tired. And my tantrums are bitchy.

Transient

I'm still having my fears. It doesn't go away with time instead it multiplies with time. Shd I or shd I not? I keep questioning myself over and over again. What's real, what's not? What's temporary, what's permanent? If I get defeated by obstacles that easily, then its certainly not what I thought it is.

Never let anything bring me down

I'll be fine. My head is spinning. Omg. And I jus reached hg. Yep, tts about it.

Never-ending challenges

Not to forget, came home wanting to cook myself porridge cause I've had too much cup noodles for the past week to find out that my cooker has been shifted away also. Good job dad! Now I'm home alone, skipping my dinner and having these dizzy spells that are soo torturing! -.-

Getting ill like a superwoman

I'm always learning things through the harder way. Am currently down with a flu, sore throat and fever. Yet I still couldn't make up my mind if i were to drive home or to cab home. To add onto it, im even thinking of heading to hg. I'm in a disastrous state today. Messy hair, bare face. I hate falling sick. It jus reminds me everytime of how I only hav myself to rely on at the end of the day. Tts also a way of life telling me, you're jus doing fine and you'll keep getting better. Stronger and higher self-reliant. But of cos, we do once in a while yearn for some dependent. I do too. Afterall, I'm only human. But rejections of all concern and uncalled worries is one of my biggest forte too. My life is jus contradicting. I knw. But I'm still surviving:) and will always be surviving. Nth else is too huge for me to handle.

Jus another night.

My life is fantastic. Running nose with an empty stomach. Puked my guts out earlier on. Tell me about it la. I don't need anybody's sympathy so save it.

What do I do with myself?

Today's been tough. I had to make a decision over letting my frens down or putting my work down. I still favor work. Knowing I wouldn't be able to enjoy myself to the fullest, defeating the purpose of a getaway trip. Some thing must be gg very wrong in me. I can't explain nor describe the guilt in me towards whichever side tt I had to let down. Be it so, I've gt no time to wallow in self pity but to take it in my stride and to move on. I should probably date work instead of having frens or anything else. There's jus this much I could giv. And I feel so helpless whenever I'm standing at a crossroad. I guess my mom probably felt tt much earlier. I'm still having the shivers, yet I'm heading to hg. I jus don't wana keep letting my mom down. I get so sick and tired of myself really. In most days of the week, I tried not to think about it. I tried to think what could I hav achieve besides work? I couldn't think of any. Yet as much as what they said, I'm immensely into the work tt i hav now I begin to wonder what will happen to me the day tt I resign? I would probably lose the only motivation to move on in my life. And to add on to it, things hav to keep happening to waiver my determination. Why can't it jus be peaceful and smooth sailing? I don't need anything. Seriously. I would be most grateful if one day I could jus forget who I am.

我们都傻

There isn't any reason to accept gifts that came outta nowhere esp. when it's frm a nobody.
And I'm definitely not jus any girl on the street, gg gaga &creating a big hoo ha cause of it.

钱不是万能，他们都笑我傻 但钱买不到我的衷心 并且只会让我觉得你很蠢。时间才是唯一能遮盖所有的背叛与妄言的解药。

Home sweet home!

Jus done with my unpacking of my loots! Bought the most number of stuff! Frm clothes, to accessories, masks &biscuits to luggage bag etc! See! these are only from h&m! so much cheaper than the one at sing, irresistible!!



My right ear is still block frm the pressure earlier on. Sigh. I'm so tired physically and mentally but I still can't seem to get my mind to rest! Got myself my very own 'pak pak xiong' from ocean park!

The rides were fantastic! Challenged all three roller-coasters &the devil drop! I swear i wont hav the guts to try as i get older! Omg, i was horrified! Visuals will be up next week! Unglam max seriously! I still gave up on putting effort to look pretty or at the very least put on more makeup. I settled for the least again. Lazy spells fugly! Anyway, i still wish it didnt ended tt soon. Now its bac to disastrous reality which i hate it so very much, i wana stay in my lala land still! Alright, gotta continue packing and hit the sacks! Gotta be at hg tml morning! My life ain't tt perfect. Neither am I. Am jus numbing myself every single day. Fyi, Cny was awesome too! Won lots of money frm blackjack! Seems like ladyluck shd be shining on me this coming yr! No more burns and bruises frm accidents &falls pls!

Day 2

It's really really cold here. And I'm really really tired.