梦醒了，就该回到现实。

The same time few years back.

I just never trusted my place. Be it past, present or future. It's Halloween night. Am sure all of you must be having fun dating &partying. Happy Halloween.

Doing what they do best

While everyone is busy dating, bringing girls to the movies, having fun getting to know new people, I spend my halloween working! Happy Halloween peeps!!
I bought a new toy btw! My baby is arriving next week hopefully by friday!

When life fails you, life goes on still.

Forsaking something you had a part in building it, probably takes you a lifetime to understand the pain. It's as good as killing me. I watched it grew, watched it crawl, watched it fall, watched it bloom. I never imagine one fine day I would hav had to forsake it.

还在忍耐

I bought a MacBook, sold a MacBook. How ironic. My stomach feels a bit weird today.
Do we look alike btw? Haven't gotten a picture taken with my mom for a very long long time..

When will i see the end?

I wana quit the job. If I can I wish to quit my life all together, is that possible?

Work

Number 1, I need to buy a really big notebook like maybe an A3 size to keep track of all the daily transactions as well as the business activities as well as the people.
Number 2, I have to double check over and over again the work done, the amount, the cheques, the payments, the invoices. People's damn careless mistakes of the simplest things like tabulating the amount and spelling errors.
Number 3, the fingerprint system is just stupid and a waste of money. It takes them one second to get in but I have to get stuck for a good 5-10mins before I can get in.
I have one million and one things to keep track and monitor every single day. And boss, you said it too damn easy. If it wasn't for the kan chiong, there would be plenty of shit holes you damn jolly well knows.
In life, there are people whom are worth you slogging your asses off for but in life there are also people you know too damn well what a big ingrate they can be. And what kind of a fool you are to hold on to that damn responsibility you swore to safekeep. It's nt that I don't make mistakes, I made countless of them. But its the effort in safeguarding the operation like no other. The kind of initiative you would automatically take, to make anything and everything better. The kind of zillions checking and risks to take before making any decisions. You can't find that anywhere. You can't find that no more. Unfortunately, there's bound to still have that 1% chance of failure. I personally had experienced it a million times already.
Speaking about initiatives, it's where many failed me, like how I feel life failed me, many times.

24/7

I'm happy to have met people from all walks of life. But am still sad that I got involved with so many of them. There are strengths and flaws in everyone so why can't we stay in harmony and think more for others? I know my bad temper is obstructing. I know that I'm really inconsiderate to the people around me. As long as I get my things done, I didn't bother how frustrated it get for others. But naturally I take people for granted and vice versa too. It's been a really long night and I'm just really upset that either direction gets me nowhere. My home used to be my only consolation and of course at least something worth going through, getting stretched everywhere, everyday. But time changed me and everything into a big mess. My mind seems like a computer that hasn't been shut down for months. Just really close to breaking point. But still, life have been kind. I'm healthy, and still breathing.

Closure

My breakfast cum lunch cum dinner & supper. Finally after 18 hours of hardwork, I get to rest my feet. Poor them, suffering from major crack and peel. Lol. I need a new pair of slippers!:)

Bachelorette pad!

Mock me like you will. Am finally moving house. Gotta stay at some random place for a couple of months before the house will be ready. Still feel oddly outcasted, cannot wait for another year before I can finally get my own dream house and to start a brand new beginning. Although I'm as good as living it now since I'm staying on my own. But I'm pretty sure it's gonna feel a whole lot different! It's gonna be my first ever major fulfillment of my life!

Side by side

It's been really cold lately. I could get by without the fan and the air condition. Anyway this is what I saw today.. Cute aight?

So gone wrong!

Jus changed to my third set of aligners! It's soo tight that I had to take a long while to get it out and to put it back on again. I can't munch on solid food, spoiled my appetite! The pressure on my teeth is getting on my nerves! I am already hoping it could be over at the soonest!

One down, two to go.

许下的誓言承诺，像河水就这么流走了

一分包容
两分不舍
三分无可奈何
四分痛定思痛

Its 4.45. Puked for the entire night &jus am able to rest myself. It's been weeks. Why can't I stop falling sick? Why can't I stop waking up every hour? I really need some real practical rest be it physically or mentally.

I fucking hate everything about myself!

Fucking glasses! Of all times you have to fucking lose a screw! Then now what! Driving like a blind man! Fucked up peak hour! Why the fuck am I so stupid? I want to start living for myself! The jam is seriously getting on my nerves!

山无棱，天地合，才敢与君绝

Shoutout

I'm hungry. Skipped my dinner again. Saw my dream car by the way. Hehe. Went pass Mac but decided to quit it but now damn, I regretted it. I WANT TO EAT.

Wad

No matter how I look at it, the sky seem grey today. Its already up to a point where I'm tired of even doing any explanations.

Wiser? Maybe not.

Just received my Frank card today &i cannot wait for both my pins to be mailed to me! I need to change pins &my signature. Was thinking of getting the Posb Go card replace too! It's gonna be a tiring weekend ahead but I look forward to getting to the end of this year and to embrace the next. I have so much plans on my mind but too little time to fulfill all my goals! Speaking of which, my Cpf finally has a decent amount of figure in it but still, it seems like a long way before I could down a house! LOL.
The best part of my life is that I can never sleep at the right time. Insomnia has officially replaced gastric as my best friend!