Hav you ever felt like you don't belong? No matter what you did, no matter where you go, there's no place that you belong to. Even after trying multiple times, you jus don't fit in. The pieces of puzzle were lost that very day..

Here we go again

Blame it on myself. I'd never blame anyone else. To even for one second thought I was wiser. Doesn't matter anymore. I shouldn't and I shouldn't had taken the first step, now I got myself all messed up inside. Tonight I feel exceptionally depressed. Can't help but feel like I'm balling in all over again. It felt right but I guess I was wrong.

Ain't never gonna let another bring me down

I try as much as i can to keep my distance. I still have yet to mend the broken pieces. I trust too easily, I relied on just anyone I feel comfortable with too quickly. That resulted in shattered hopes, empty beliefs, broken dreams. Tonight its yet another self reminder, to not trust, and to never rely on nobody. ever again.

Cursed ego.

I'm short, plump, pessimist with a wrinkled face, huge nose, big face, short hands &legs.
I'm not feeling inferior.
I'm just me.
I like how my lips are torn, my feets & hands that are scarred and the bruises on my ass.
I'm not perfect, neither am I sociable.
I never like running outta my comfort zone.
They call me a freak. Or ajumma at times.
I like it better.
I have no expectations of life cause it fails me everytime.
& I'm bloody sick of the boring lies.
So where does that leave me?
I don't know. Perhaps you can tell me?
Its just the way that I am now; too broken inside.

This is how we say goodbye. At least for me.

You were my sun. You were my rain. I swore by my undying love. I remember everything you claimed. But now, its all just a shame. Two much. Too much. I'm too damaged. I know how perfectly imbalance my world has became. It's ok with the lonely nights, I'm alright fighting on my own. Rumors spreading. Everybody's laughing. Its ok. There's no victory, there's no defeat. Just a game of deceit. Cause all I ever wanted was to just walk away. Walk away..

LEZZ BURN THE ROOF DOWN

I'm thinking of all the possibilities. I picture the future so frequent these days I got lost in these illusions.
They tell me I'm thinking bad. All the worst scenarios, I had them up in my mind.
I shouldn't lose hope. I shouldn't lose faith. I'm not crazy. I'm just a little sick in the head:)

To top it off, lezz play the fav off my playlist.

Music cures me. It stops my world from crushing. Though I'm not even sure what my beliefs are now.
Nothing could get me back on the tracks yet there's nothing that could get me down either! But I know I'm happy like that! The best has yet to come!

LEZZ WELCOME JULY, DOLLS! BALI, HERE WE GOOOO!

刻骨铭心

有些伤口永远没办法癒合

Sick. Tired. Headache.

Day two of smoke-free & 4th day of jogging regiment!

Having this really bad gastric and a bad flu. Half of my nose is block. Am on full shift tml. Cut my hand for the second consecutive day. Argh! I need to stay healthy! Jogged three rounds today. Almost died. Got nagged and I need to skip it tml. Sigh.

Sneezing nonstop, my nose is running nonstop. I am fucking hungry. Yet there's nth I can do about it. I jus wish at this time at least somebody could giv a fuck about it. Or at least buy me smth call food. Instead of trash like cup noodle from 7-elevens. Do not get that pls. You're gonna regret your guts out. Why do I keep seeing your limitations? Sometimes I feel I'm jus hard to pls but at other times it's jus disappointment after disappointment.

Out of breath, gave up jus after two rounds. My nose is running, I'm having a stitch on the left side of my waist. And it's only the third day. Omg. When will it ever hit eight full weeks.

God, I hate myself.

I am gg to die. Probably just finish a 20 mins jog and 40 sit ups and I'm like a dead bird. Omg. I'm getting horrendous. That's equivalent to nth done at all during my sch days. I totally deserve to get fat. Blame me for my procrastination. And now I'm regretting cause I hav to work double hard just to get rid of the tummy.

Been trying my best to jus be good enough. Enough spinning. Quit supper. I need a listener so bad now.

The only off day for this month flew by jus like that. My legs are tired though. Stiff to the max. I'm looking forward to realizing my jogging regiments!! Pls do not rain tml!!!

On second thought, I should probably lock up the post. I most probably wanted to be you as much as you wanted to be me. So save the envy.

I'd still question myself over and over again.

So sick of you pretending
So sick of the tension
So sick of the politics
Why do humans hav to be so complicated everywhere?

幸福就好，开心就好

Life is never ending of acceptance of risks. We fall but we are willing to try again and again. At the end of it, we hope to find smth worth risking for.

A lifetime of happiness

Accept me at my worse and my best or leave me at my worse and not get any of my best. Fyi, I'm willing to weather any kinds of hardships, as long as you vow your faith and your heart for they're priceless and that they could be so much more precious than jus pennies and golds.